Sunday, January 17, 2010

should i stay in uni?

honestly.

heres the facts:

  • last semester i did way way worse than i did in my 1st two years at uni and ive done no design work at all these holidays so im assuming ive gotten worse still
  • i have no where to live
  • i will have to work part time which means i wont be able to focus on my assignments as much as i need to anyways
  • apart from a select few, very few, people, my university is filled with snobs who think/know they are better than me and its not a nice environment to be in. incredibly harsh on my already low self esteem.
  • you’re probably thinking, “well if you cant handle that then you wont be able to cut it in the real world design industry” and youre right. i wouldnt. which is why i want to quit now.

on the other hand:

  • i havent seen my student loan balance lately but im gonna guess it at around the $25,000 mark. at the very least. so quitting now mean ive paid all that for nothing.
  • i will be a drop out. no qualifications, no interest in doing anything else, because design is the only thing i know. ill have to work in retail under assholes like Ryan for the rest of my life/until i decide theres something else i might be good at
  • my parents will not understand. theyve poured so much money into my education and i couldnt bear to disappoint them with something this huge.

so basically. im screwed.

no matter what i do, i end up unhappy. what the fuck is up with my life.

i wish i could just not care about any of it and drop out and go live in spain. but my conscience is too big for that.

i know i could just take a year off, but honestly, soooo many people become designers, so why would anyone choose to hire the girl who took 6/7 years to do a 4 year degree. this is what i mean. i wish i could just stop thinking about all that and do what i want :(

Posted at 12:11 AM 6 notes

Notes

  1. colourspectrum answered: Seriously. Keep at it.
  2. scrablett answered: If its your passion you should stick with it - the course is going to be the hardest part. Once you’re done with it, it will be fun again
  3. emma-jane-xo answered: awh hunnles
  4. iwriteblogsnottragedies answered: I’ll still love you and stand by you no matter what you choose :) *hug* Sorry I can’t help much :\
  5. thats-not-even-real reblogged this from lakeeffectkid and added:
    course doesn’t affect an employer.
  6. sharleenherself answered: pretty sure you already know my opinion. just want you to remember im here when you need to rant/cry.
  7. lakeeffectkid posted this