i know you’re all getting sick of trying to convince me i don’t suck. and that’s okay. i love that you care enough to try, but honestly, i’ll never believe you. it’s nothing personal. it’s just my extreme lack of self confidence. i want to believe you, trust me i do. but until ~something goes right for me again, i’m gonna be down on myself like this.

i’m going to have to get shazz to write the descriptions for the LEKxCCH designs that will be released later this week. cos if i write them they’ll all just say:

“yeah so you’ll probably hate this. cos i like it and it seems like whatever i think, the opposite is true. so, yeah, sorry for the big build up guys, i know you’re thinking this isn’t worth the wait. maybe if theres a next time, if you give me another chance, i’ll do better”

im all mopey and i know theres bigger things to worry about in the world (the fact that my boy might need surgery for one) but right now? Life: 1 Charli: 0